I'll decide when I'm there. Are you sure it won't distract you from talking about ( suspiciously, her dissertation study did not require a very thorough examination of the rules of dnd. looking for one single reference, ah ) beholders?
Most people's are. A human will find tragedy in a vacuum. Take heart in knowing most people are just as miserable as you.
( a little weird wait, where parisa battles her self preservation and the awkward instinct to tell eddie something about herself. inconvenient. but — parisa doesn’t make a habit of second guessing herself. )
i hope you can control it because my head’s a mess ( there is no silence, constant noise and anxiety and spiraling even without the fun presence lurking there in the back )
( a number of salacious tidbits of gossip come to mind, each more cruel and inherently evil than the last. but ultimately, none of it means anything. everyone is a monster, parisa knows that — she knows that better than anyone. the brutal truth, )
Government secrets. Mafia crimes. The real first impression everyone has of you. Imagine the most unforgivable thing anyone has ever said to you. And now imagine everything they didn’t say, but thought about saying.
( imagine being the prettiest girl in the world, with a brother who decided you became a woman when you were twelve. )
people didn’t really filter themselves around me but that’s true… even if they were shitty out loud, they probably thought worse
i’m sorry you have to hear it
it’s probably… actually awful. when people are are horny and you have to hear it ( he wrinkles his nose, wonders how often she has to deal with being objectified. she beautiful, gorgeous and he’s enraptured but Eddie’s sure his fellow men wouldn’t always think the most flattering of words. )
You shouldn’t pity me, Eddie. You should fear me.
( the endless pursuit: parisa has no idea how evil she’d have to be in order to be seen as anything more than beautiful. libby could probably tell her, but she could probably be defined as a psychopath by someone who didn’t know her. )
who said i pity you? i think people are awful, that's different. you could probably ruin them, couldn't you? ruin me if you wanted to
tell me what i'm thinking( something aches at the base of his skull, a throb like the start of a headache. he winces, frowns and shakes it off and hopes it's not what he thinks that is about to get unpleasant at someone poking too deep. )
Nobody walks headfirst into ruination. You should at least have the decency to make me hate you first.
( eugh. she’s practically smitten. )
If you were less kind, you’d be thinking how stuck up I am, to look how I look and have the audacity to complain. But you’re not, so I imagine you’re thinking about every thought you’ve had in my presence, and how much of an ass you’ve made of yourself, and whether or not I know how much you want me. If it helps, you haven’t thought anything awful that I’ve seen. And I don’t need telepathy to know the rest.
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I like tragedy. So much more interesting than happiness.
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well my life happens to be a tragedy
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I'll decide when I'm there. Are you sure it won't distract you from talking about ( suspiciously, her dissertation study did not require a very thorough examination of the rules of dnd. looking for one single reference, ah ) beholders?
Most people's are. A human will find tragedy in a vacuum.
Take heart in knowing most people are just as miserable as you.
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damn, here i thought i got to be bitter and petty for good reasons
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( annoyingly enough, it's not a lie. )
Depends on what the reasons are. Some people suffer more, that's a fact.
Are you suffering?
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just got the short end of the stick in a lot of things
i don’t think im suffering now, unless this is all a dream and i gotta wake up
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You’re enjoying your stay here, then?
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it’s better than the meat place
better than home too
r u?
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Well ( meat place ???? ) I suppose it’s nice not being hunted. And the free clothes aren’t bad.
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you were hunted before?
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Not very friendly.
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that doesn't surprise me about america
i'm like... public enemy of suburbia
hail satan, apparently
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and have the last name munson
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( a little weird wait, where parisa battles her self preservation and the awkward instinct to tell eddie something about herself. inconvenient. but — parisa doesn’t make a habit of second guessing herself. )
Want to keep a secret for me?
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only if you want to share it
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Freaked out?
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i hope you can control it because my head’s a mess ( there is no silence, constant noise and anxiety and spiraling even without the fun presence lurking there in the back )
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( she immediately can't believe she said that, now thoroughly annoyed with herself. )
I've seen worse than messy.
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like what?
cw: implied csa
( a number of salacious tidbits of gossip come to mind, each more cruel and inherently evil than the last. but ultimately, none of it means anything. everyone is a monster, parisa knows that — she knows that better than anyone. the brutal truth, )
Government secrets. Mafia crimes. The real first impression everyone has of you.
Imagine the most unforgivable thing anyone has ever said to you. And now imagine everything they didn’t say, but thought about saying.
( imagine being the prettiest girl in the world, with a brother who decided you became a woman when you were twelve. )
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i’m sorry you have to hear it
it’s probably… actually awful. when people are are horny and you have to hear it ( he wrinkles his nose, wonders how often she has to deal with being objectified. she beautiful, gorgeous and he’s enraptured but Eddie’s sure his fellow men wouldn’t always think the most flattering of words. )
can you do it over distance?
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( the endless pursuit: parisa has no idea how evil she’d have to be in order to be seen as anything more than beautiful. libby could probably tell her, but she could probably be defined as a psychopath by someone who didn’t know her. )
Do you want to know what you’re thinking?
( neither a yes or a no. )
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tell me what i'm thinking ( something aches at the base of his skull, a throb like the start of a headache. he winces, frowns and shakes it off and hopes it's not what he thinks that is about to get unpleasant at someone poking too deep. )
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( eugh. she’s practically smitten. )
If you were less kind, you’d be thinking how stuck up I am, to look how I look and have the audacity to complain. But you’re not, so I imagine you’re thinking about every thought you’ve had in my presence, and how much of an ass you’ve made of yourself, and whether or not I know how much you want me.
If it helps, you haven’t thought anything awful that I’ve seen. And I don’t need telepathy to know the rest.
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